[alas, being swept up in feelings about ladies with problems is kind of his thing now]

"Happy"? If you really wanted her to be happy-- If you really care about her, then maybe be a good example instead of a bad one. Don't revel in being some kind of "demon" or whatever just because you're too lazy or frightened to change. Because you can, if you can feel even a little remorse for what you've done, if you have even the smallest interest in making things different, then you can. You're too strong to just give up! And...and I know there's a good heart inside you, unless you're saying that everything you've ever told me was a lie!